A NEW CHAPTER OF KAYLARAE
Its official! I REBRANDED! Kaylarae Resin Designs is now formally “Kaylarae STUDIO” (and to be completely honest, I am low key terrified 😝). Honestly I would be a little worried if I wasn’t terrified… this is huge jump for me and my artistic career, and something that I have been debating on pulling the trigger for over a year now (somebody pinch me!!)
Before I explain the “why” behind this transition, I wanted to take a moment to thank you for being here. This blog goes out to you, my supporters turned collectors turned friends, who have been by my side through this roller coaster of a journey. One day I am making custom grazing boards in my parents garage, and the next thing I realize I am slinging out thousands of grazing boards and artworks while selling out back-to-back-to-back. Over the years I have come to realize how rare it is to break the “starving artist” stigma, and how rewarding of an opportunity it has been to build a business and community from the ground up. I am truly so blessed.
Over the last 5 years, I found safety in committing to resin as my primary medium. I was pleased with the work I was able to put out there and found that the most gratifying part about the whole process was how many people resonated with the style I developed.
So heres what I didn’t realize…. the chronic effect stress would have on my physical and mental health. I mean… why did I think pumping out 200+ grazing boards 6 times a year as a solo artist would be a healthy choice in the first place?! Its backbreaking work. Its also incredibly hard to document and share the entire process on social media since my hands are always messy (a moment of silence for all the phone covers, shirts and Lululemon leggings that have fallen victim to resin 🥲)
My body started to tell me enough was enough beginning in December of last year. Chronic fatigue led me to develop severe migraines, and later a double ear infection that landed me in the ER. This was definitely not the most ideal situation for a small business owner in the height of holiday season, to say the least🙃. It led me to become pretty much bed-ridden from December through March of 2022. Through all the lows I’ve experienced while running my business, I would consider this period of time my absolute lowest. It was easy to come to terms that I could not continue on the same path of labor, but what was the toughest to accept was that this form of work was no longer my passion.. even worse, I was TERRIFIED of starting over.
In the following months, I quietly returned back to the studio. I decided to lay low on the grazing boards and push out a few smaller collections, but I was more focused on experimenting with different mediums that would work with resin. I had been through this experimental phase with resin several years ago, yet this time it felt so much more difficult to process- it almost felt like I was learning to ride a bike again... only without knee pads and elbow pads. Each time I failed, it felt so much more painful than it had before. Maybe because I was so used to it all coming to me naturally. It was a painful process, but slowly
It was an extremely painful process to say the least, but as the months passed, I became more comfortable with falling on my a$$. Sure I was bleeding money, practically dumping materials down the drain day after day, but the lesson that came from it was even more valuable than all those materials put together plus quite possibly all the artworks I have created in my career. I realized that the pain in creating came from avoiding confrontation with uncomfortable situations, not the pain itself. Art is learned, and unlearned x 1000 times before it is perfected, only to be learned and unlearned again. This is what makes art ART. It is all a physical representation a brief moment in time of an artist’s journey.
After countless sleepless nights and praying for a sign, I took a jump to to play with a completely different medium- one that I had never considered pursing before. I drove myself to the craft store (convinced my boyfriend to come along with for moral support) and bought 7 large canvases, a handful of paints, and a set of paintbrushes. For those of you who know me, I am pretty frugal, so you can imagine how nervous I was approaching that checkout stand about to drop hundreds of dollars on new supplies without a clue of what I was going to do with all of it.
Spoiler alert- something sparked inside of me and here we are today- releasing a collection created with all of those once blank canvases!
To answer your impending question- NO this is not a goodbye to grazing boards or resin art! I am simply taking a step forward to adopt these alternate elements into my style and brand. I am so excited for this next chapter and to share with you all these new works. From the bottom of my heart THANK YOU -For believing in me over the years when I wasn’t able to fully believe in myself. For creating a space that I can be myself. For sharing my work with friends and family. I couldn’t do it without you.
Cheers, to turning over a new leaf, learning to bend before I break, connecting to my roots, and Growing through the storm.